think to much??

harlo harlo... dear readers its time for me to blogg again.... i am a dam lame person.... but for people who think my blogg is stupid can just fuk off....... today my blogg is for me to express wat i think about one person.... i try to communicate with her..... we sort of got to an understanding but in a way i feel i am disturbing her.... i trying to talk to her more and understand her more... but it seems to be hard.... but i dont want to giv up... its just that i am afraid of the future...... so there u go i do think too much.... i really dunno whether she is the one or not???..... but its hard to say because i am so far away now...... only time can prove everything... i think i will lay low for awhile and see wat comes along my way...... hopefully some good stuff....

times that i just want to be in for the rest of my life

this is for the first time in many many years that i release this blog to anyone who knows me..... this was for so long a place for me to release my feelings and sometimes i read this blog like a diary and see how stupid and immature i was and how stupid i was....... i regretted some of the times and cherished many of it... it made me who i am now..... and yet there is many more steps for me to go.........

i wrote todays blog to wish my good fren(brother) wei sim happy bday...... his bday is today..... he had his bday party yesterday and it made me remember the feeling of having so many frens together with no boundries again.... the feeling when i had in form 5 till just one year ago.... this one year....... alot of things happen to me..... many good and many bad..... but i just want to say sorry to my frens..... i left all of u all aside.... and yesterday just made me feel that i threw myself away from my frens......... i missed the fun i had with all my frens.... the no boundaries fun we all have..... where time was never enough for us to play..... this coupling thing just was over my head...... i dunnno wat i have becomed...... although i am still open to it....i will never leave my frens alone again........ guys and gals this is my word to u....... wei sim i will see u soon buddy...... u made me wake up from my sleep again man....... and i thank u =)..... plis feel free to drop comments.....