why??

why must it always be like this.......not that spm is coming and everything......why everytime when i tell myself i want to forget her something comes back and tell me that u have hope....when i always know that i will come down in the end.....i have never ever successfully had the one i really liked....maybe its not my destiny to have a girl that i want.....maybe.....everytime i dunno wether i want to go for her anot...something ask me to but when i do it seems that its not true...maybe its me....am i not cute enough...maybe not hot enough....or maybe just too stupid... i dunno.....haih...watever it is its not gonna help me sleep for the whole night AGAIN...